Living Water

The hundred-and-seventh confirmation

Paul watched the video after seeing Debra’s note to begin at eleven minutes and thirty seconds. As the name Debra was called again and again, and the mother and daughter relationship was spoken over, Paul stood in agreement and left a comment. It landed as the hundred-and-seventh comment:

This is not mysticism with numbers. It is the recognition of God’s perfection. The number 107 is a marker God has placed over Paul’s entire life, documented in his book A CEO’s Inner World Before Life Collapse — the house number, 107, into which he was born as the youngest of three children to John and Carol. A number that had haunted him for twenty years was transformed, in a single morning of counting love hearts through his family home, into a number that means love. Born into 107. Connected to Psalm 107. Woven through this daily fellowship countless times. This hundred-and-seventh comment was simply the latest demonstration.

And so Psalm 107 stands here — a passage for both our families.

Debra, called by name

Debra described the moment as though God Himself were calling. The repeated speaking of her name carried tenderness, awakening, and personal attention. It reached toward her relationship with her daughter, Jasinta, and toward His desire to bring healing, honour and a deeper love.

Paul, Clare and the school event

Debra shared what she sensed concerning Paul and Clare being seated near one another at Sofia’s school event — the picture of Clare’s hand moving toward Paul’s. Not something to force or expect in the flesh, but a tender, possible sign of nearness, softening and reconciliation.

Paul connected this with the message he had already sent to Clare and Jim, asking for the right time to apologise properly. The deeper miracle is not the apology itself, but the heart posture beneath it: no striving, no manipulation, no pressure that this must now unlock everything, no bitterness — a sincere willingness to bless their relationship, and a genuine desire for peace, honour and safety around the family. This is a profound fruit of inner healing.

The disarming power of humility

Paul recognised that apologising to Clare and Jim is not a strategy. It is obedience, humility and peacemaking. The phrase that stands out:

That is not weakness. It is crucified love. It is the enemy being disarmed through humility rather than argument.

The hidden privilege of this season

Paul recognised something holy. Though the last years have looked outwardly painful, God has used the physical aloneness to minister deeply to him. The world may look at a father who did not see his daughters regularly for a long season and call it only loss. But God has been doing a deeper preparation — healing the inner world, teaching patience, removing striving, restoring presence, and making space for the book, the framework and the testimony.

The current freedom is not emptiness. It is stewardship.

“Dad’s back”

Debra received the phrase: Dad’s back. It connects beautifully with the recent fruit with Amelia and Sofia — the cuddles, the conversations in the car, the presence, the absence of the phone, the gentle teaching and the emotional availability. The daughters are not only hearing words. They are encountering a father who is more present, more peaceful, and more formed by Christ.

The conversation about alcohol

The car conversation was significant. Amelia had learned about the effects of alcohol at school, and Paul gently added the relational and moral dimension — how alcohol can lead people to say things they would not normally say, to hurt those closest to them, and to forget the damage caused. Sofia listened, and added her own quiet understanding.

This was not a lecture. It was seed‑sowing. It may become a future memory the Holy Spirit brings back when the girls are older and faced with their own decisions.

Ashley and the living waters

The most tender part of the fellowship centred around Ashley — Ashley James Ferguson, who entered into glory to be with his Lord and Saviour in October 2023. Paul shared what he sensed: that Ashley walking into the sea should not be remembered only through the lens of death, tragedy or darkness. In Christ, the sea can now be remembered through the lens of living waters — of peace, and of the receiving love of God.

This is held gently. The physical reality remains; the loss is not denied. But the Father appears to be bringing a holy frame: Ashley did not walk into abandonment. He was received by Jesus — the expansiveness of the ocean a picture of how wide, how deep, how long is the love of God.

The beach — a place of peace, not darkness

Debra described visiting the beach and feeling peace, not tragedy. She stayed there ten, fifteen minutes, because it was so beautiful. Paul connected this with Second Kings chapter six, where the eyes of Elisha’s servant were opened to see the hillside filled with horses and chariots of fire.

The beach reframed: not a dark memorial site owned by death, but a place where the Presence of God, His peace, and the ministry of His angels may be recognised. The grief remains sacred. But Jesus is Lord there too — and to the pure in heart, the place is pure.

The shared parental calling

A deep shared thread emerged between Paul and Debra. Both are believing for family members who do not yet fully see what God has planted through them. The Lord appears to be saying: you may not yet see the harvest, but the seeds have been planted.

Every gentle word, every prayer, every act of honour, every moment of restraint, every conversation about Jesus, every apology, every demonstration of empathy and every act of love — all of it is seed.